Flow

I am Kristen and, although I may not always feel it, I am free. Sometimes it feels like I am too free. Like the cages and locks of my past were safety and now I have no cages, so am I safe? It’s confusing. But I am safe. I am safe without the cages. I am both free and safe. I never even knew it was possible to be both. Those that built the cages and locks don’t want me to believe it’s possible. But now I am starting to see. I can see that the cages and locks are not safety. They never were. They are traps that kept me from flying and kept me stuck. I have worked so hard to destroy my cages and build my world but sometimes I still feel them. They wrap around me tighter and tighter and the more I fight the tighter they become. So I stop. I shrink down. I become small. I wait and my energy builds. Slowly. Slowly. Until I have enough strength to stand tall and shake off my chains. I laugh and stretch and take up all the space I need and more. I remember that I am free. God smiles at me and everything is okay. I stand with all of my awareness in the present moment. I feel it all. I know that I am Kristen and I know that God is with me and I know that I am free. I also know that I will have to do this again. And again. And again. And that this is what it means to be human. To be on this Earth. To be a child of God. And I am a part of it all.