Freedom

Winter is hard. I’ve been feeling so sad lately and not wanting to be in the world. Everything has felt like too much and being around people is scary. I go to ketamine to remember. To feel what I know. That God is within me and the Universe is filled with the Holy Spirit. The energies come to me and dance. They tell me stories of my ancestors and of the Earth. I laugh with God and I am love. I’ve been so hard on myself lately but really I just want to be soft. I want to be safe. I’ve spent so much of my life letting people tell me who I am or what I need. Too much time being locked away. Now I am free but it’s scary to be free and in the world. The voices of the past shout at me and I am confused. But God reaches out and rescues me and I am love again. I am free but I am not alone. I am with God. I am Kristen. I am love.