In ketamine I get to be Little Kristen. I am wrapped up in so much love and I am held by God. I am playing by the water with my brother. We are children together but hold the wisdom of many lifetimes between us. There are no conditions here and I am free to be who I am and how I am. Love is flowing freely without any currency and all the Earth is connected. I am everything and I am nothing. I am expanding. I can feel my cells healing. I can feel everything. This is what it means to be alive. This is what they don’t want me to know. This is my power. I laugh with my brother because I am not afraid. I remember that I am whole and that I am worthy. God calls me beloved and I know in my being that this is my truth. I wonder why I was so afraid. The fear has shown me the magic of the unknown and I dare to keep dreaming.

